Crispy Faerie Holler and other news..........

Hello friends, Maddie here. It's been awhile since I posted something. I see on the earlier posts that thanks to the kindness of friends, there was quite a little stir caused when my last post was put on the newsgroup three times. I'm honored! And had no idea those whom I sent the posts to at the library would be so kind....LOL and of course the flame was enjoyable to read as well. I knew I was loved, but never knew how much! Thanks and wish I could hug each and every one of you for being there for me. You know who you are--
Well, a short update is in order, and here it comes...........those who do NOT want to read this, close it and move to the next post please....
My life has taken a turn for the incredibly happy and fortunate lately. Over the last year, I have realized that I was in a terminally deficient marriage that was verbally abusive and which left me not only despondent, but had me questioning my reason for even sticking around. Never mind that I had friends and acquaintances who gave me encouraging words. Literal words of love and affection from friends whom I've not met only through the written word, a few phone calls, cards, etc. Those who were close and could hug me weren't enough either. There was something seriously lacking.
I was snapped out of my despondency by the incredible realization that there was someone out there who not only filled the needs of my soul and heart, but someone who respected me and would love me for everything that I was and wasn't without question. I stumbled across my true soul mate, my beshert as the yiddish word is wont to be, the other half. The missing piece. This man I'd called friend for over four years and who had kept silent about his own feelings about me, because I had never told him my anguish and pain through the conversations we had over the phone. He kept his heart and mouth silent as he realized how much he cared and felt over the years. He was and still is a gentleman, and only when he asked my permission when he returned to England to write me a letter last year, did he reveal his true feelings of love and affection towards me. My own heart had been shrieking at me for a long time, but when you're as wounded and tired as I was, one tends to be a bit wary of what seems at first to be foolishness. And we don't always listen to our hearts........
But ever the optimist, I had held my tongue merely because I didn't want to cross a line and run off a true friend. Foolish me! Had I but opened up like I do to EVERYONE ELSE, I'd have had happiness way sooner and wouldn't be going through all the anguish and craziness I am currently going thru.
This man, my heart and other half is a gardener. He writes. He loves music, and adores me. He has been raising his youngest son (of three) now for 10 almost 11 of the lad's 16 years now. The teenager is phenomenal. A rare one in this world today, he's centered and quiet, focused and his wit is razor sharp. We're bonding like super glue......
The dawgs adore him. Smeagol whines and cries at his door (the boy's) to sleep with him, and ALL the felines think he's awesome. I am happy for the first time in my life. It's just strange to have a step son who is the age of my grand daughters! LOL now a bit of gardening updates.......
Today we both went outside into crispy Faerie Holler and did some whacking and lopping of dead, dying and crispy limbs and shoots. The trumpet vine has been topped and cut. It will return. The yellow ball buddelia has been cut to the ground. As has one of the two Crispa spirea. All the rampant shoots of the Sorbaria (False Spirea) were removed from their attempts at jumping the concrete along side where we park, and the Cornelia Cherry tree (twig leaf Dogwood) was given a limb lift, James doesn't like limbs in his face knocking off his glasses.
I watered containers deeply, the sucking sounds were horrible. The only stalwarts blooming are the swamp sunflowers. Their perky over sized Coreopsis like blossoms are everywhere. The hummer strafed me as he searched in vain for nectar in the Blue Enigma salvia. There are TOMATO'S on the vines I planted whilst talking on the phone to James when he was still in England back at the end of Spring. Aunt Ruby's Green and some Sungold cherry tomato's are fast approaching edibility. I put them in the front faerie gardens....
Obedient plants are blooming as well, the sedums and succulents are delirious with this dry sucking heat wave we've been trapped in now for weeks. Frakartii asters are setting buds, I missed one of the fall colchicum's blooming, hoping I haven't lost the bulbs in the other pots. As I watered, butterflies lit and supped minerals out of gratitude. The bird baths refilled were bone dry. I need to make sugar water for the hummers.........refill the suet baskets with the never melt stuff, no seeds for them. funds are tight.
I might be losing Faerie Holler, but if I do, I will keep everyone posted as to where I wind up and where the next location of Faerie Holler will be. Things are not good on the financial front. Jobs aren't readily available for myself, nor James, despite his experiences and maturity. We prevail and expect for things to come out hopefully good, despite the looming threat of foreclosure and other things.....divorce is never easy, despite best intentions and lack of animosity. Nuff said about that, eh?
The faerie's are all hunkered down around here, sulking. Mom's Nature is culling out the plants I can't take with me. Some beloved things will NOT be left behind if I lose my home of 12 years. Pruned hard and dug up after a deep watering and put into nursery pots, I will take them to Gloria's up in the foothills of Hemlock Holler soon. Some things I will have to leave behind. I have a mental list of what WILL come no matter what. I have enough house plants to keep everyone busy in this house for awhile, and sometimes it's just good to walk outside once the heat has subsided and listen to the woodpeckers and the squacking of the hummers as they careen past each other. James has been home with the woman he loves dearly now for 3 weeks, and I wish with all my heart that he can experience fall, winter and true spring here. We'll see.........
What I've given him is my love and life for as long as I'm here. And I've shown him Faerie Holler and given him the magic that it holds each day he's been here. He's been able to go outside and despite that he has tenitis, has heard the woodpeckers, cicada's, peepers, and the silence that offers a peace he'd not known in Bournemouth this past year. He's wakened up to see Lord Baltimore hibiscus blooming scarlet red skirts just outside the bedroom window, and watched the antics of the assorted winged dinosaurs as they squabbled over the suet basket I'd hung beside the Heavy Metal ornamental grasses. He's seen and smelled the seven foot 4 o'clocks that hang over the sidewalk out front, and watched me as I labored to gather seeds of the yellow and not the magenta.....He's been taken down into the true holler and seen the potential that we both know it has always had, and if we have the chance to hang onto it, it will be wondrous......
He's been able to step outside and just feel nature all around him, and he hears and makes me laugh all the time. Those who meet him, or see us together claim we appear as if we've been together for decades. We have, despite the "real time" we know each other very very well.......
The only thing we haven't done yet is garden in the rain....and since it's so dry, the figs are all covered in ants, so he's only tasted two so far......I garden now with someone who loves it as much as me, and someone who works alongside of me easily. We've slipped into each other's routines and habits like a hand into a glove.
My love and hugs to all of you who hold a special place for me, please make room for a gentle and kind eyed Englishman who has taken his rightful place alongside his Maddie........and just off to the side of him, a mischievous, incredibly blue-eyed young man stands next to his best friend and partner in jokes and teasings........
I will write as I can.
maddie, up on the very crispy and tinder dry ridge, back in Faerie Holler, overlooking a hazy English Mountain in Eastern Tennessee, zone 7, sunset zone 36
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Faerie Holler is a state of being, not any certain place. I took a 25' x 25' piece of city back yard of ugly, weedy, nasty troll lair and converted it into my enchanted garden in 4 years. The garden was all in my mind when I started with the flat patch. Gradually I copied the garden out of my mind and onto the real world. The real garden exists in my mind, the "hard" copy is a faint representation of that, a mere work in progress.
It is what we all do in winter. Our hard copy is under snow and we cant be without our gardens so we turn inward and visit our inner gardens in our mind, read gardening books, magazines, catalogs, and now the internet and begin to add, rearrange, change our inner gardens for the next year.
So, Maddie, no matter where you go you will take Faerie Holler with you. Now with your true love beside you perhaps it is fated that you meant to create a new Faerie Holler, a blend of both your inner gardens.
I didnt find my true love until I was 36. I had preferred being alone rather than not being with him. I was worried if I was busy and distracted by someone else I would miss the call to my true love. So I had to be happy and busy and out everywhere in the world I could be, and meet as many people as I could so I would be in the right place at the right time.
So, Maddie, how lucky you are that you found him. When isnt as important as it happened.
Ingrid
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snipped-for-privacy@wi.rr.com wrote:

the way you wrote and shared these thoughts of yours is so awesome. most would never dare share such thoughts. for whatever reason you chose to do so I'm glad I was able to read what you wrote.
the magic meadow is the place that will always exist in my mind. long after the actual real place was destroyed I carried the thoughts and memories of times spent there with me as a reminder of how we can continue to enjoy what was and is no longer.

love to me is a magical mystery and most likely one of the elements of the physical human experience that is never really the same in any two people. when asking others to define their experiences and thoughts with love the answers can vary as much as the differences in snowflakes, while the general consistency of the idea being where two attempt to do no harm unto one another.
peace
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my inner garden is walled to stop winter from creeping in. I spent vacations in New Orleans and I am very influenced by their little walled gardens, dripping with moisture. I am very much a woodland nymph type person, I love the high trees and cool understory filled with ferns. I eschew loud colored flowers. Yellow and white, maybe a bit of blue. But the greenness of the foliage is all. Ingrid

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snipped-for-privacy@wi.rr.com wrote:

here in central NC we are in the middle of an extreme severe extraordinary drought. as a result the wild flowers I usually enjoy were not available this year. the garden yield was not up to par and the forest is crunchy dry. it is so dry here a spark from anything could result in the creation of a raging inferno whose turbulence most likely surpasses anything I have imagined in my worst nightmare. God is my keeper and with His grace bestowed upon me I rest in His love knowing full well of how all things are granted unto me by His grace. so, I don't dwell on the the thoughts of the big fire and rebuke them each time they attempt to mess up my day by depriving me of my peace of mind.
I live on God's farm where I grow soybean as the main crop on the open land with a small produce garden to fill my pantry and supply some others. the forest are my favorite with their cool heavily shaded secret areas. people don't realize how it can be 10 to 15 degrees cooler in a forest with it's heavy canopy blocking the intense rays of the sun. in one particular spot there are springs bringing cool water from within the earth creating a special freshness in the air not found else where. the springs supported several different varieties of ferns along each bank of the small creek flowing and twisting through the forest on it's way to a man made pond located at the forest's edge. this year, it's dry and uninviting. last year it was a wonderland of beauty. a place I believe you'd have found to be enchanted.
peace and tranquility 2U, Jim
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*snip*
Hi Maddie, nice to read you again! So glad things have started turning around for you...Don't worry, the rest will all fall in place in it's own time! (A new place sounds rather exciting to me! LOL)
Prayers, Rae
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Hi Maddie! Even though we don't know each other, I have followed some of your postings for some time, mourned your absence and now rejoice your return! As Ingrid wisely says, Faerie Holler is but a state of mind. You and your true love will always abide in its fragrant embrace. I didn't find my true love till I was 50 (after years of marital misery) so I cheer for you and your courageous decisions.
Deb
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Oh Maddie! I'm so glad to hear that you are safe and happy and loved! I'm sorry to hear about the uncertainty of the Faerie Holler but will keep you in my prayers. Please take lots of photos which will help you during sad times. I know just hearing about it helps me through my sad times. I still have some photos that you sent me and hope I will get to visit you before the Faerie Holler moves.
loonyhiker (Pat)
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Hi Maddie, How wonderful to see you post and read of your incredible happiness. I've been wanting to take a drive to Faerie Holler and revel in your hospitality and your gardens, and enjoy a glass of your iced tea, play with the dogs and cats. Maybe sometime soon...
Love to you and yours, Gloria

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hi maddie, im so happy to see that everything in your life has taken
such a happy turn and that u could share this happiness with all of us :). it sounds like things are growing and changing in faerie holler. i wish i was there so i could give u a huge hug and just say how happy i am for u my friend. i hope u will let me call u that :). my prayers and thoughts are with u all. i pray that u are able to keep faerie holler as u love it there so much. also dont worry about your kind eyed and gentle english gentleman and his blue-eyed young man because my hubby got me the folding chair and i brought them along so they can come and join us all here i garden banter :). take care of yourselves and gods blessings on your new found love and happiness. hugsssss sockiescat :)
-- sockiescat
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Bravo, Maddie!! Good on ya!!
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